Part 1 

Undoing the Way We See Things Now

REVIEW VI

I am not a body.  I am free.

For I am still as God created me.

Lesson 201 

  1. (181) I trust my brothers, who are one with me. 

No one but is my brother.  I am blessed with oneness with the universe and God, my Father, one Creator of the whole that is my Self, forever one with me.

I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me. 

 

Personal Notes and Application:   I want to do the best I can to stay with the structure and guidance on this review instead of just going my own way and sometimes doing it the second time and sometimes not.  So I will start each practice session for the next twenty review lessons with the main idea of:

I am not a body.  I am free.

For I am still as God created me.

In the morning and before I go to sleep, I will do my devotional review for the day.  I will also repeat the main idea on every hour throughout the day and when I do remember it:  I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me.

I know that this is true because I know that I am not a body and that I have always been as God created me and not this body of flesh and blood and muscle and tissue.  This body is a symbol of the ego.

I will close my eyes and forget everything I thought I knew and understood.  I will forget it all.  This is the way that freedom is given to me and frees me from everything I did not know and failed to understand.  So when thoughts of this one or that one come to trouble me, I will close my eyes and forget everything I thought I knew and understood about them.  I will realize that I did not know them, and I did not understand them.  I will be made free.  And then if idle thoughts do come to me, I will give them up.

Throughout the day I will relinquish every thought that clutters up my mind and makes it deaf to reason, sanity, and simple truth.  So when thoughts that cause me stress, worry, dislike, distrust, irritation, or fearful and unloving come to me, I will relinquish these thoughts by saying:

This thought I do not want.  I choose instead ______________________.

I will insert the idea for the day on the line.

Most of my practice will be in quiet.  Jesus has prayed for me and offered this review to the Holy Spirit and I am placed in the charge of the Holy Spirit during this time of review and I will learn from the Holy Spirit what to do and say and think each time I turn to Him and do not rely on my own understanding.  Every time I call on Him, He will be there for me to help me.  As I learn to trust the Holy Spirit completely each day as we move toward the goal, we give a loving gift of freedom to the world.  In Jesus name.  Amen.

This was my intention – however it did not work out this way at all.  I did my lesson as part of my daily routine, as I am having my second cup of coffee and as part of my morning devotional.  The truth of the matter is this:  I do not remind myself hourly of the lesson idea.  It is in my thoughts a lot, to the point where I am afraid I may be obsessing about the Course, but I am not formally using the idea, and at night I am usually too tired and frankly, a bit bored with the sameness of the idea and do not want to have a second devotional.

I have already talked to the Holy Spirit about this and have no reproach from the Holy Spirit about my own personal take on the Course.  The Holy Spirit’s response to my fretting about my disregard for the form of the instructions, has been only thankfulness that I am doing this at all, and that I am applying myself to it daily and with an ongoing commitment.

What I have mainly learned from today’s idea and lesson review is just how much I don’t trust my brothers, and how what I have been longing for my whole life, has not been denied me by an outside force that is against me, but by my own choosing.  And so I bring it to the light – how from the time I can remember I didn’t trust my mother and my father, my sisters and my brothers, my friends and my extended family, and I did not look upon them as one with me.  The idea of the Course that I projected outward to the screen of my life and created all the scenarios that so isolated me and caused me to reject them is a bit of a pill to swallow and I am finding a lot of inner resistance toward this teaching.

Is it my own projections that give me an ACE Score of 7?  Without going into any gory details and exposing the darkness of others, did I really, as a young girl, project all of my own darkness to those others?  Are those troubling events that occurred, that served as the impetus for developing distrustfulness and hard feelings towards others, only lessons to be learned because I would not have learned them any other way?  Sitting here in my hotel room and looking at this now, I would say, Okay, well at least it served some positive purpose, but during the time that the chaos was happening, it did not feel like part of any curriculum or to serve any purpose at all except to confuse and stun me into a lonely, dazed detachment from others.  It was alienation.

I ask for illumination on today’s idea:  I trust my brothers, who are one with me.

Because Holy Spirit, I do not trust my fellowman in this world of bodies.  In the Sonship where we are free of our bodies, yes, I trust them.  If this is where we are going with that, I am golden.  If I am expected to trust them in and with their bodies, I do not.  Show me the way as I apply my understanding to today’s lesson.  In Jesus name, I pray.  Amen.