Lesson 202 – I Will Be Still an Instant and Go Home

Part 1 

Undoing the Way We See Things Now


I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me.

Lesson 202

  1. (182) I will be still an instant and go home. 

Why would I choose to stay an instant more where I do not belong, when God Himself has given me His Voice to call me home?

I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me. 


Personal Notes and Application:

I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me.

Today I am experiencing a distance from and a resentment toward the lessons and I am thinking about how much I really do love the world.   I love my special relationships – my darling husband, and my kids and grandkids and my friends and other family members. I love the Georgia Satellites and Elton John. I love the coffee and the tea.  I love growing  things.  I love books.  I love cooking.  I love the scenery and murder mysteries and mint chocolate chip ice cream.  I did not think I loved the world, but now I realize that I do.

I have questions about what it is like in Heaven, in God’s Kingdom that I would be tempted to leave there in the first place.  Is it boring?  That was always my biggest concern because all that sameness, the unity and communion, the foreverness sounds lovely, but perhaps the reality is stultifying.  In the old flannel graph lessons where we were taught as children that the Israelites were so ungrateful for the daily manna from heaven, I was insulted beyond words that their god would give them the exact same thing to eat every day and severely punish them when they grew tired of it and asked for a bit of meat to liven up their diet!  What if God just wants us to do nothing but Be throughout all eternity and do nothing but sing His praises?  What if He wants to feed us the same old thing day after day and cast us off as wretched ingrates if we dare to complain?

I ask the Holy Spirit to be with me and to guide me through this temptation to doubt and distrust God’s best intention of love, stimulation, a sense of fun, and adventure.  Surely the Israelite’s god was their own creation.  Give me a humble mind that doesn’t think it knows it all, a trusting mind that knows God’s love and best intentions.  Illuminate me, is my prayer.  In Jesus name.  Amen.

Published by eckief

My love for God, home and hearth, my husband and family fueled my decision to devote the rest of my life only to pursuits which brought love, joy, peace, and purpose. I am a writer, seeker, student, and teacher with experience professional and otherwise from waitressing to teaching the English language in China, Taiwan, and Singapore. I hold a BA in Psychology from Bloomsburg University, which took nearly 30 years to attain while I squeezed courses in between raising my children, journaling, relationships, work, and an assortment of escapades, some of which I would rather forget! An ongoing passion for reading, writing, adventure, food, and fun, eventually led me to the love of my life, James, whom I met in 1996 and married in 1997. Our life together has been an exciting journey of work and travel, spiritual awakening, and domestic bliss ever since. Although we have experienced the tragic loss of family members and friends through death and estrangement, we have managed to turn our special relationship into a holy one by the grace of God and an acute and growing awareness of “there must be a better way!” In 2006, I published my first novel, Luella’s Calling, and am currently working on my second, Grover Good and the Stone Chateau. From 2013 through 2018, I worked as a Prevention Education Specialist for Transitions, a local domestic violence sexual abuse victim’s service agency. My work there, fueled by a lifelong enthusiasm for teaching, led me to obtain an MS in Education from Scranton University. In 2018, I resigned to accompany James on his work travels while focusing on my calling to study and teach A Course in Miracles. To that end, I dedicate the rest of my days to writing, sharing, and teaching the message of salvation found within the Course pages. Thank you for your interest in this blog. As I do not respond to comments on the posts, if you care to contact me, please email me at eckief@yahoo.com.

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