Lesson 205 – I Want the Peace of God


Part 1  Undoing the Way We See Things Now

I am not a body.  I am free. For I am still as God created me.

Lesson 205

  1. (185)  I want the peace of God.

The peace of God is everything I want.  The peace of God is my one goal; the aim of all my living here, the end I seek, my purpose and my function and my life, while I abide where I am not at home.

I am not a body.  I am free.  For I am still as God created me. 

Personal Notes and Application:   

I am not a body.  I am free. For I am still as God created me.

My prayer then is that truly it is the peace of God that I want.  That the peace of God is my one goal; the aim of all my living here, the end I seek, my purpose and my function and my life, while I abide where I am not at home. My prayer then is that I don’t make this illusion my home, that the ego cannot convince me that I do not belong in Heaven.

For this is what the ego tells me:  I am too flaky and changeable to ever abide forever with my Father and belong to the holy Sonship of God. Too much of a fun-lover, the ego tells me.  You would never be happy there with all that peace and joy and love.  You need to shake things up too much.  You love to judge people and scold them and tell them what to do.  Look at how you tore into that poor guy last night at Lowe’s for blowing dust on your legs.  You know those Jesus types – they would have just let the guy blow dust up their skirt, smiled gently, and excused themselves for standing in the way. You are not an old sap of a girl like they are, the ego says to me.  You are a rascal, a jo-jo, frankly just a blasted stinker of a person always thinking of yourself, and why not?  That’s what everybody does, whether they admit it or not.  It’s all about them, so why can’t it be all about you for a change?  The peace of God, for that is what you pretend to seek, is not what you want at all.  You want adventure, superiority, snappiness, vengeance, and judgment.  What is all this talk about brotherhood and sonship?  Can you imagine nobody being unique, outstanding, or gifted?  Everybody being equal.  What a joke!  Relax and be yourself.  Don’t listen to that voice for god; it is just your imagination.  You see what it does to people – makes them weirdos, fruitcakes, those new-age types that would cry and eat chocolate all day just because Trump won the election, or even worse those Pentecostals that blubber gibberish and fool themselves into believing it is God and angel language that they are speaking.  Just be normal, move away from such madness. It has been your real aim and your real goal your whole life.  Carry on with that, the other voice tells me. 

This morning I woke up and the question in my mind was this:  Are you a one or a zero?  A memory from Liberty Valley Elementary came to mind.  Over fifty years ago, our class made pictures using the one and zero commands as a tool for learning how computers communicate.  We were told to leave the space blank when the teacher said zero; if he called “one,” we filled it in, (or it may have been the other way around).  For those of us who did not miss a command, we had a picture of a flower in a vase at the end of the exercise.   

When I did a google search for the quote, I found this at https://www.quotes.net/mquote/803204  from a 2015 TV series called Mr. Robot:

Elliot: Are you a one or a zero? That’s the question you have to ask yourself. Are you a yes or a no? Are you going to act or not?

Mr. Robot: Yo… you’ve been staring at a computer screen way too long, homie. Life’s not that binary. Isn’t it?

Elliot: Sure, there are grays… But when you come right down to it, at its core, beneath every choice, there’s either a one or a zero. You either do something or you don’t. You walk out that door; you’ve decided to do nothing, to say no, which means you do not come back. You leave, you are no longer a part of this. You become a zero. If you stay, if you want to change the world, you become a yes. You become a one. So, I’ll ask you again: are you a one or a zero?

I either do something, or I don’t.  I am either in or out.  In Course terms, I am part of the Kingdom, or I am “normal” in time, contributing to the illusion, prolonging suffering for my brothers and me, trying to find meaning and purpose in unreality, in a big blank zero of a realm. 

I choose the peace of God.  I want the peace of God.  I am willing to let all the ego’s desire for specialness and intrigue, fame and fortune, lust and revenge, for ease and luxury, go – for it is a big zero.  I am a One.  I trust in my brothers as I believe in the Voice for God.  I will find everything that I truly want in the peace of God. 

Harrisonburg, Virginia

Published by eckief

My love for God, home and hearth, my husband and family fueled my decision to devote the rest of my life only to pursuits which brought love, joy, peace, and purpose. I am a writer, seeker, student, and teacher with experience professional and otherwise from waitressing to teaching the English language in China, Taiwan, and Singapore. I hold a BA in Psychology from Bloomsburg University, which took nearly 30 years to attain while I squeezed courses in between raising my children, journaling, relationships, work, and an assortment of escapades, some of which I would rather forget! An ongoing passion for reading, writing, adventure, food, and fun, eventually led me to the love of my life, James, whom I met in 1996 and married in 1997. Our life together has been an exciting journey of work and travel, spiritual awakening, and domestic bliss ever since. Although we have experienced the tragic loss of family members and friends through death and estrangement, we have managed to turn our special relationship into a holy one by the grace of God and an acute and growing awareness of “there must be a better way!” In 2006, I published my first novel, Luella’s Calling, and am currently working on my second, Grover Good and the Stone Chateau. From 2013 through 2018, I worked as a Prevention Education Specialist for Transitions, a local domestic violence sexual abuse victim’s service agency. My work there, fueled by a lifelong enthusiasm for teaching, led me to obtain an MS in Education from Scranton University. In 2018, I resigned to accompany James on his work travels while focusing on my calling to study and teach A Course in Miracles. To that end, I dedicate the rest of my days to writing, sharing, and teaching the message of salvation found within the Course pages. Thank you for your interest in this blog. As I do not respond to comments on the posts, if you care to contact me, please email me at eckief@yahoo.com.

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