Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Theme: I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.
- (186) Salvation of the world depends on me.
I am entrusted with the gifts of God, because I am His Son.
And I would give His gifts where He intended them to be.
I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.
Personal Notes and Application:
In Lesson 186, verse one, Jesus says that this statement will one day take all arrogance away from every mind. That realizing that salvation of the world depends upon me is a thought of true humility, which holds no function of my own but that which has been given me. I take the part that has been assigned to me and I no longer insist upon another role. That saving the world but acknowledges the Will of God being done on earth as it is in Heaven. Doing this – saving the world, learning how to save the world, accepting that this, and this alone is the Will of God for my life, the function that has been assigned to me, unites all wills on earth in Heaven’s plan to save the world and restores the world to Heaven’s peace.
In the lesson that we are reviewing today, Jesus urges us not to fight our function. Fighting my function and trying to find my reason for being in all manner of other roles is what I have done most my life! The special relationship was especially calling to me, seeking out the ultimate lover, “Thee One,” who would make me special, would adore and cherish me, would put me above all others. I wanted to be educated and have degrees. I wanted to be a writer, travel first class, be loved and adored by people from all over the world. I wanted to go down in history for something, I just didn’t know what and I didn’t know how. I knew that it would all end in loneliness, despair, and death and so I never put my all into it; I rather expected it to just happen – one day I would wake up and it would just come to me. It did not seem to be a necessarily selfish goal. I didn’t want to be famous or well-loved for doing anything evil or mean– it had to be something that brought goodness to the world. I would pray to God, latch on to causes, put forth vision boards and practice visualizations, say special prayers, and make tremendous efforts, but the efforts in this direction never quite panned out because at the core of me, I knew that they were selfish goals even if they appeared to be good. It was all about me, after all, and my unquenchable yearning to be loved, admired, to be the best at something.
So it would stand to reason, one would think, that realizing that the salvation of the world depends on me, would satisfy that yearning for specialness, give me something for which the ego – who yearns to be a superhero, a rock star, a shining light in one form or other – could latch on to and go forth and do just that. But the ego instead shrieks with panic and says “Eckie, this Course is madness. You cannot save the world. You are a big zero, a big nothing. Who do you think you are? You are going to end up just like your mother reading such BS and taking it to heart. Put it away. Enjoy the few years you have left.”
And Jesus addresses this in verse six. He says, “Arrogance makes an image of yourself that is not real. It is this image that quails and retreats in terror, as the Voice for God assures you that you have the strength, the wisdom, and the holiness to go beyond all images. You are not weak, as is the image of yourself. You are not ignorant and helpless. Sin cannot tarnish the truth in you, and misery can come not near the holy home of God.”
“Enjoy your special relationships,” ego says, “They are all you really have, after all.”
Yes, those special relationships – the way they rise and fall, shifting between coldness, aloofness, snubs, and backbiting to warmth, closeness, secret-sharing, and seeming brotherhood – I know better than to ever consider enjoying a special relationship, ego! And I laugh.
I will do as God’s Voice directs. And if He asks a thing of me which seems impossible, I will remember Who it is Who asks, and how then could I say no? In verse 12, Jesus asks us to consider which voice is more likely to be right – the Voice that speaks for the Creator of all things, Who knows all things exactly as they are, or a distorted image of ourselves, confused, bewildered, inconsistent, and unsure of everything.
And then in verse 14, we find what saving the world really looks like. In sentence five, Jesus states: “Salvation of the world depends on you who can forgive. Such is your function here.” We are not asked to be different in any way from what we are, all we are asked to do is forgive. So let us forgive. And save the world. Amen.