Part II:1 WHAT IS FORGIVENESS?
God is my life. I have no life but His.
- I was mistaken when I thought I lived apart from God, a separate entity that moved in isolation, unattached, and housed within a body. Now I know my life is God’s. I have no other home, and I do not exist apart from Him. He has no Thoughts that are not part of me, and I have none but those which are of Him.
- Our Father, let us see the face of Christ instead of our mistakes. For we who are Your holy Son are sinless. We would look upon our sinlessness, for guilt proclaims that we are not Your Son. And we would not forget You longer. We are lonely here and long for Heaven, where we are at home. Today we would return. Our Names is Yours, and we acknowledge that we are Your Son.
I have no other home, and I do not exist apart from God. This other thing that is going on here with the body I can hardly call life – for it is death and decay and of the ego. I am not a body, and I am still as God created me, a living and eternal spirit, a holy Son of God. This is not life, but a dream, a perpetual lesson of separation from my loving Father. I thought I would like it here, but I do not. Some aspects of it are exciting and endearing, but it all ends in disappointment and death because nothing lasts. What poses for love relationships are replaced by lust and greed, judgment and comparison, status, and fear. When I engage here, it is with the ego and the ego’s long list of sacrifices, rules, and complications. It is human trafficking, not life.
My life is God’s! I have no other home but in God’s Love; I am a zero without Him, only thinking that I exist while living in a dream, a forlorn character tossed and turned by the whims and desires and failings of a twisted ego author who exists only in miry clay and decay.
God’s Thoughts are part of me, and I have no thoughts but those which are of Him. The ego simulates me, putting “I” in its own insinuations and calling it protection, keeping my truth covered by its allusions and lies. Trust in me, says the ego. You can’t rely on God. God would have you sacrifice yourself on the cross. God would have you be trampled by the users in the world. Arm yourself against them, Eckie. Walk in fear. Someone may break in and steal your homemade potholders! Or they may poke fun at your homemade potholders. In either case, be prepared. Build a defense against them, or they will ruin you.
And the Holy Spirit smiles gently and says, Lay down your defenses, dear Son of God. You are protecting nothing. Trust in me. You live not apart from God. Your body is already dead and long since turned to dust. These taunts are not Thoughts at all. Let me fill your mind with sinlessness and innocence and love. Laugh at the ego and make merry – your loneliness and longing are entirely unnecessary. Acknowledge that you are His Son and be free.
The only thing that makes this the least bit difficult is how persistently the ego works to convince me that it is me.