Part II:1 WHAT IS FORGIVENESS?
God is My Father, and His Son Loves Him.
- Father, I must return Your Love for me, for giving and receiving are the same, and You have given all Your Love to me. I must return it, for I want it mine in full awareness, blazing in my mind and keeping it within its kindly light, inviolate, beloved, with fear behind and only peace ahead. How still the way Your loving Son is led along to You!
- Brother, we find that stillness now. The way is open. Now we follow it in peace together. You have reached your hand to me, and I will never leave you. We are one, and it is but this oneness that we seek, as we accomplish these few final steps which end a journey that was not begun.
Loving God, my Father! I cannot receive what He gives and not return it. No longer willing to keep the love for Him inside – hidden behind my fears of sin and judgment, my love of God blazes in my mind and all worries are cast aside.
Yesterday I listened to several troubling messages on a minister’s answering machine. “What should I do with them?” he asked. “Should I erase them? Should I call the police?” Since there were threats of continued harassment – I suggested calling the police. This is a crime, and there is no point to endure continued aggravation. “Do it in love for yourself and for the other, because to allow this to continue is harmful to everyone, especially __,” I said, naming another dear brother walking for a while the insane path of judgment and condemnation.
The stripped-down, laid-bare ego, a voice which I am very much familiar with, leaves the most batty messages upon the “answering machine” in my mind. Telling me that I am nothing but exactly what I always was – condemning me for the mistakes of my past, projecting its interpretation of me unto my present and future, telling me how unworthy I am to love God and accept His Love for me, the ego jealously sees my real worth as threat. My “worth” to the ego is shame, guilt, and the realization that I am stupid beyond words and sinful beyond redemption! If it can’t get me to believe its lies about myself, the flying rat shrieks lies about you and everybody else.
To quietly and calmly call the authorities and refuse to receive or broadcast any more of the ego’s spiteful messages, makes us decision-makers deciding for the Holy Spirit and not the ego. God is our Father, and He gives and receives our love as His Son. He never leaves us. He never condemns, shames, or judges us for the empty mistakes of our past, but throws His arms wide open and welcomes us home. Oh, to be like Him!