Part II:1 WHAT IS FORGIVENESS?
My Home Awaits Me. I Will Hasten There.
- If I so choose, I can depart this world entirely. It is not death, which makes this possible, but it is change of mind about the purpose of the world. If I believe it has value as I see it now, so will it still remain for me. But if I see no value in the world, as I behold it, nothing that I want to keep as mine or search for as a goal, it will depart from me. For I have not sought for illusions to replace the truth.
- Father, my home awaits my glad return. Your Arms are open, and I hear Your Voice. What need have I to linger in a place of vain desires and of shattered dreams when Heaven can so easily be mine?
Changing my mind about the purpose of the world and seeing no value here has not been as difficult for me as you would think. It has always been a disappointment to me, this world. But I do have worries about returning home, and I take it quite bluntly to the Holy Spirit.
What if like the prodigal son, I left home because the place was dreary to me and I sought adventure and the thrill of doing it on my own? Has God considered that with His great love and desire to have me come home? Forever is a long time; a fright to think about at times. Being stuck with all those spirits, being one with them, and not having any solitude – I may grow testy, you know how I am without my alone time, Teacher. If I come home and only grow bored, irksome, and restless again, what is the point of giving up ego and the world? There are times the two choices, offered by the Couse, give me pause. For as much as I long for God my Father, I would rather stay here than grow discontent with and wreak discord in my Father’s Kingdom.
The answer that the Holy Spirit provides:
Your worries are the concerns of every thinking student of any spiritual journey, and they are based upon ego’s lies about your true identity and your eternal home. Let me be clear: Creating is the biggest and boldest of all adventures, and you hardly grow bored. Freedom and liberty are yours only as a Son of God. You chose to leave because you sought to be special, to want more than your equal share – not because you were bored or longed for adventure. Do not let ego continue to deceive you. There is nothing more annoying, trite, and humorless than ego. Specialness comes at the expense of equality, oneness, and true brotherhood. It leads to distrust, decay, destruction, and death, which provide you no stimulation.
I wish I had more than vague memories of my real Home! I say that I want to go home, that the world is a disappointment to me, but I see that I love the vain, illusory world, after all. I want to stick around and see my great-grandchildren. I want to finish Grover Good. I want to watch Lover fully construct our house, and I want to get to live in it for as long as it has taken to build! I love my kids and family and friends. I love taking trips, and I love staying home. Oh, how I adore drinking coffee each morning with Lover. I want to walk Hadrian’s Wall. I want to visit the Netherlands. I want a Tesla. Okay, I’ll be honest. I want a flying car before I die – go ahead and laugh. I haven’t even used my greenhouse yet, and Lord knows how I love to grow things. Let’s face it. I love it here.
I feel the Holy Spirit’s smile. Of course, He says. All that and heaven, too!