Lesson 238 On My Decision All Salvation Rests.

  1. Father, Your trust in me has been so great.  I must be worthy.  You created me, and know me as I am.  And yet You placed your Son’s salvation in my hands, and let it rest o my decision.  I must be beloved of You indeed.  And I must be steadfast in holiness as well, that You would give Your Son to me in certainty that he is safe Who still is part of You, and yet is mine because He is my Self.
  2. And so, again today, we pause to think how much our Father loves us.  And how dear His Son, created by His Love, remains to Him Whose Love is made complete in him.
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Devotional time passed today,  my coffee cooled from getting caught up in household chores  – laundry to be hung and another wash to start, yogurt brewed and calling to be put away in a clean container, bed linens changed, and then this thing and that.  All during this time, Dire Straits’ “Money for Nothing” was sing-songing in my head – “I want my, I want my, I want my MTV…”   What in the world?  And then, because of my Course studies, I thought of the old lyrics and the distracting household chore, which today seemed to have an unnatural pull on my mind, in a new way.  What truth was ego trying to keep from me? 

My ego wanted MTV!  What a laugh.  So obvious at times, ego.  Jesus teaches decision-making is straightforward and unequivocal – we have two choices –  ego or  Holy Spirit.  Realizing what was behind the distractions, I came to the lesson today with renewed interest.  On my decision, all salvation rests!  It comes down to choosing the myriad ego choices that would spin me in circles and lead me nowhere or choosing Holy Spirit that leads me to God. 

Last night was not a restful night – and though I tried to use my sleeplessness for Holy Spirit, I felt alone and quarrelsome.  I had imaginary arguments with Lover in my mind.  I asked Holy Spirit to please help me get some rest with the busy day ahead and to no avail.  A grudging thought toward the BLD 20/20/20 diet and exercise plan Holy Spirit had given me griped:  I better lose weight on this or else what is the point of all this interminable effort!  But the real, underlying cause of my unrest was the idea that seeking God was a hopeless cause and that I was only imagining Holy Spirit’s guidance.  Loud, clear, and highly persuasive, ego stated in my mind:  YOU NEED ME, ECKIE.  YOU WILL NOT SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD WITHOUT ME.  DO NOT KID YOURSELF. RELINQUISH ME, AND YOU WILL REGRET IT.  THIS OTHER STUFF IS PIE IN THE SKY.

My Father trusts me.  He created me, and He knows who I am.  My Father placed salvation in my hands and lets salvation itself rest upon my decision.  I am beloved indeed, and steadfast in holiness that my Father would put Christ in my heart with certainty that He is safe, and that Christ becomes me as I become Him.  No wonder the ego works overtime to keep me from my true Self.  Ego, take the MTV where for me the sun doesn’t shine – I will choose the Holy Spirit every time!