II. SECTION 9. What is the Second Coming?
Lesson 307 Conflicting Wishes Cannot Be My Will.
- Father, Your Will is mine, and only that. There is no other will for me to have. Let me not try to make another will, for it is senseless and will cause me pain. Your Will alone can bring me happiness and only Yours exists. If I would have what only You can give, I must accept Your Will for me, and enter into peace where conflict is impossible. Your Son is one with You in being and in will and nothing contradicts the holy truth that I remain as You created me.
- And with this prayer we enter silently into a state where conflict cannot come, because we join our holy will with God’s, in recognition that they are the same.
When we recognize our own “will” as being impossible apart from God, we realize that what is here ensnared in time is a tiny splintered self, separated and having no will at all. A passing puff, a dream, a wisp like everything else in the material, ego-and time-based world is this frightened, blustering mini-self, tossed about by the feckless ego. We can call that our will if we so choose, but by choosing the ego’s senseless path, we end up with nothing but pain, bewilderment, and sorrow.
We discussed in our study group yesterday the challenges of the past to determine the Will of God in one’s life. The Will of God was something, we were taught, that one could fall from. “He is outside the Will of God,” was a statement that meant that a particular brother was no longer reading his bible or coming to church on Sundays. It could mean that he was seeking a divorce or giving up the ministry. However, being in the Will of God was a murky area which few seemed to be completely certain about, except the sociopaths posing as ministers of God. They seemed to know the favors required of you to be in God’s Will!
Many people were and still are confused about our role in God’s Will because of not understanding a simple concept. There is no will but God’s Will. He is God. What He Wills comes forth. His Will cannot be contradicted. He does not have to defend His Will because it is the only thing that is real, true, and everlasting. His Will is outside of time, and quite frankly far above our current ability to understand. His Will cannot be grasped or understood by us – we are in a separated state and we can only pray for His Will as we open our hearts to the Second Coming of Christ and enter into that state of peace where conflict cannot come.
Being in God’s Will is an act of faith. We simply give up our efforts to find happiness, peace, and fulfillment in the ego-world and in our ego-dreams and ask for God’s Will. It is not a magical event. God’s Will quietly occurs behind the screen of ego’s projections. It will not make the headlines; it will not be broadcast on the networks, or reported on the evening news. Ego-world is not going to step aside and admit that it has darkened our minds and kept us captive, but will continue to go on as if God’s Will can be countered.
However, God’s Will always was and always will be. We can trust in it. No worries. No frets. It just is.
Where His Will is not, is not real. It simply doesn’t exist. It is like the past. It is like a dream. When efforts and expenditures we make peter out and end as dust in the wind, we can see that God is not there. Where there is conflict there is no God. Where there is strife and mind-games, grudges and resentments, putting up barriers to peace and to love, there is no God and therefore not God’s Will. Where there are wind and wave, male and female, hot and cold, black and white – God is not there. In God we are one, our wills are joined with Gods and we are the same. There is no war between the sexes, no race wars, no cold or hot wars. Battles are not waged; battles are not won because there is no battle. God does not lead us into battle, nor does He fight the ego. It would be ludicrous to think of God as taking a side and going to battle against an enemy which only exists in the imagination.
If I want what God gives me, if I want all that God has for me, I must enter into peace where no conflict is possible. What I want for myself is what I want for my brother. We must lay down our competition, our attack and defense; our tendencies for spite and revenge. We must stop hoarding and start sharing. This is God’s perfect will for us. We cannot do this in the ego. In the ego if we do something for somebody else, we want the credit for it, because we did something that cost us. We want gratitude. We want our picture in the paper. In one form or the other, we want recognition.
When we do God’s Will, the act itself is all the reward needed. It is such a pleasing experience that we are filled with gratitude over how fun it is, how joyful, how fulfilling. We are not eager for credit, we don’t begrudge others for not doing their part, we don’t boast to others or complain to others about how much work we put into something. There is a totally different experiential approach and the outcome is more peace, more love, more joy.
Some of us have had to learn this lesson the hard way. Now we know when ego is doing something through us or if Holy Spirit is accomplishing God’s Will. We can tell the difference by the thoughts in our mind. When Holy Spirit is acting out through you, your heart is light, joyful, and grateful. We do not call people and complain about the hard tasks expected of us. You do not sigh or droop your shoulders. There is a song in our heart and a praise on our lips. This song is not forced from an otherwise sour, weary spirit. We do not put on a brave front for ourselves or others. You will be there because you are where you are supposed to be doing what you are supposed to be doing. Holy Spirit is there. We are having fun and our burden is easy. Afterwards your body may be weary. You may have to sit down and put your feet up, drink a cup of coffee, but there is no complaint. If someone would ask, “How can you do that? Why isn’t so and so pulling his own weight? He isn’t your kid or your responsibility”… you will not join in and commiserate about the shortcomings and failings of others. You will simply say, “I only do what brings me joy. It is my pleasure to do what Holy Spirit points out as God’s Will for my life.”
If ego is behind your activities and charity and giving, you will seek recognition, a big thank you. You will feel as if you lost something instead of gained. Therefore you will proclaim how hard you work and how thankless the tasks. You will sigh and drop your shoulders and talk trash about the people you are there to help. You will have sour thoughts toward others who are not pitching in. You will build cases against them and draw up sides so as to go to war. You will sing songs that promote how superior your beliefs and practices are over the beliefs and practices of others! You will march in protests against injustice. You will give lectures and post messages proclaiming your good works on Facebook and try to shame others into joining you in your cause. You will ask people for money to support your pet causes instead of trusting God. The more you do, the more exhausted and depleted you become. You get sick and guilt others into visiting you. Your ego will make you feel lonely and abandoned in your hour of need – for it is ego’s desire to make you forget your constant and eternal Companion.
Our prayer today:
Dear Heavenly Father, Your Will is what makes me happy! We have tried to do something else besides Your Will and it only got us into trouble. We wanted to be known for our good works and all it did was exhaust us. We started to despise the very people that we were called to love. We resented people who did not share the burden and talked mean about them behind their backs. We ended up lonely and full of pain. We wondered how all that effort could have landed us with so little. Now we know.
We were trying to make another will, when it is Your Will alone that can bring us joy. Please give us Your peace and deliver us from conflict. Show us what to do and what not to do. Let us practice wisdom in our godliness. Let us not wear ourselves out on people you have not called us to help and missions you have not assigned to us. Deliver us from the mundane and tiring tasks that would deplete us. Help us to put down our desire for specialness and comparison to others. Let us think of ourselves and our brothers as one in You. We remain as You created us! One in You and one in the Sonship of God. Let us enter with a quiet heart into that Holy Will where conflict cannot come! Let us only do the Will of God and let the ego with its clamorous demands go the way of the past and disappear forever. Let us join our holy will with God’s in recognition of this truth: Conflicting wishes cannot be our will. In Jesus name. Amen.
 A Course In Miracles, Workbook for Students, 307. Conflicting wishes cannot…Foundation for Inner Peace, Second Edition, p. 453