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II.  SECTION 11.  What is Creation?

Lesson 325 All things I think I see reflect ideas.

  1. This is salvation’s keynote:  What I see reflects a process in my mind, which starts with my idea of what I want.  From there, the mind makes up an image of the thing the mind desires, judges valuable, and therefore seeks to find.  These images are then projected outward, looked upon, esteemed as real, and guarded as one’s own.  From insane wishes comes an insane world.  From judgment comes a world condemned.  And from forgiving thoughts a gentle world comes forth, with mercy for the holy Son of God, to offer him a kindly home where he can rest a while before he journeys on, and help his brothers walk ahead with him, and find the way to Heaven and to God.
  2. Our Father, Your ideas reflect the truth, and mine apart from Your but make up dreams.  Let me behold what only Yours reflect, for Yours and Yours alone establish truth.[1]

Today’s idea may be salvation’s keynote, but this is the one idea that I find the most difficult to accept and to understand.  As I ask Holy Spirit for illumination and illustration in this morning’s devotion, nothing at first comes to me except an object lesson from my personal life, namely, to do with a special relationship.  At this point the special relationship does not feel very special.  There have been bitter disappointments, rivalry, lies, accusations, old grudges, resentments, and misunderstandings down through the years that have left me feeling abused, used, battered, and betrayed.  In this particular relationship there has seemed to be a power and control disorder, a disrespect for personal boundaries, and a tendency to relate from the past.  The ensuing estrangement has caused me inner turmoil, sleepless nights, heartache, sorrow, sadness, and feels like death.  And yet the idea of continuing in the special relationship on the terms set forth is hollow, empty, and void of meaning.  When I ask God for help, I am instructed to rely only on the inevitability of God. 

None of this rings true in my heart.  Never would I have made up such a story; I love Special, I protest.  Special has always been dear to me, someone I looked up to, someone who was always there, someone whom I considered my closest and dearest friend.  But our lesson seems to be condemning me, saying that I projected condemnation, disappointment, and self-hatred, heaped it high, and then condemned outward.  What I see reflects ideas that I made up. I know this is not true, Lord, I cry out.  I didn’t do that!

Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and illuminated my mind.  Our lesson today is not personally condemning us for the ways in which our relationships are not real and holy.  In ego world, all relationships are doomed for they are built on the insane ideas of the world.  We all make, at least for a while, the mistake in believing, making real, and practicing the special relationship. 

When we accept the ideas of the ego and build our relationships on anything other than forgiveness, we begin to hold dear our “rights” and “privileges.”  We begin to demand and expect things rather than giving to receive and receiving to give.  Jealousy and competitiveness are made real.  Backbiting and gossiping, playing games with each other, dishonesty, and meanness are made “real,” and judgment and condemnation enter in making it an empty, hollow, union lacking warmth, gentleness, true companionship, and rest. 

When we build our relationship on forgiveness, we are saying, we are all Sons of God experiencing the separation.   We have bodies that need forgiveness.  We have egos that need forgiveness.  We are going to make assumptions, tell lies, chase after the things of the world, mistake status for pleasure, mistake money for power, mistake lust for love.  We will choose grandiosity of the ego over the grandeur of God.  While our egos look for ways in which to build cases, point fingers, and project darkness, we are going to go beyond our egos and  forgive one another!  We will perceive our true worth and recognize the Son of God in each other. 

When we choose relationships built on ego, the ego will give us special relationships fraught with drama, betrayal, dishonesty, and game playing.  We will build cases, collect allies, and start feuds.  When we choose relationships of forgiveness, God will give us holy relationships of forgiveness, gentleness, warmth, and peace.  We will walk with our brothers in our journey to God and His Kingdom, with only love and unity.

Our prayer today is the prayer of the Sonship of God who loves and seeks only that which is truth.  When we recognize that our minds, separated from God can only make up dreams of despair, we ask for the mind of God which reflects, because it is, only what is true and everlasting. 

[1] A Course in Miracles. Workbook for Students.  Lesson 325 All thing I think I see reflect…Foundation of Inner Peace, Second Edition, p. 464.