II. SECTION 12. What is the Ego?
Lesson 339 I will receive whatever I request.
- No one desires pain. But he can think that pain is pleasure. No one would avoid his happiness. But he can think that joy is painful, threatening, and dangerous. Everyone will receive what he requests. But he can be confused indeed about the things he wants, the state he would attain. What can he then request that he would want when he receives it? He has asked for what will frighten him and bring him suffering. Let us resolve today to ask for what we really want, and only this, that we may spend this day in fearlessness, without confusing pain with joy, or fear with love.
- Father, this is Your day. It is a day in which I would do nothing by myself but hear Your Voice in everything I do, requesting only what You offer me, accepting only Thoughts You share with me.
Before today’s devotional, I was looking over the free Kindle books offered to Prime members. One, in particular, seemed especially interesting – based on actual events from the 1980s, the author had written an imaginative, fictional account of a sexual predator ring in her hometown. An intense, pleasurable tale, according to most reviewers, the work was something to look forward to enjoying.
At the beginning of 2019, the Holy Spirit instructed me to forgo fiction (my passion) and steep myself in the Course for the entire year. But here we are in December, and 2019 is drawing to a close, so I started a list of all the tomes I am going to dive into beginning January first!
Then this morning’s lesson – I will receive whatever I request. What is it about us that tales of sexual misconduct and perversion, bad things that happen to little children, to men and women that we would gravitate toward hearing about, listening to, or reading? No one wants pain, and yet we can easily mistake pain for pleasure, seeking out stories for entertainment and leisure that do more for disrupting our peace than establishing it. No one really wants to avoid happiness, but yet we still harbor the idea that joy, that bliss, that contentment is boring, mundane, and dull – something to be avoided at all costs.
It would seem we are confused about what we want. What state do we desire to attain? When we read stories and seek out entertainment venues that broadcast the sordid, frightful, looming shadows of ego-world, we are asking for what will frighten us and bring us suffering. We will not look upon each other as the perfect, holy Sons of God when we fill our minds with stories of rage, bloodshed, and wrongdoing.
Let us resolve today, our devotional teaches, to ask for what we really want and only this. We are to spend each day soaring above the sordid darkness of ego on wings of fearlessness, through the serene skies of joy, upward into the heights of love. Above it and not in it, ego-world and all its common lies, distractions, and bloody ruins do not look the least inviting. There is no more doubt about what we want when we hear the Voice for God and dedicate our days to our return.
Today let’s remind ourselves that, like all time – this day belongs to our Father. Today we do not desire that which would fill our minds with darkness and despair. We will not confuse the dramas and traumas of the world with our joy and pleasure. Instead, we hear the Voice for God in everything we do, asking only for what God offers us, accepting only the Thoughts that God shares with us.
Lead us on the path to you, dear Father. Let us be fearless and joyful in our return to love. Uplift our minds with Thoughts that soar above the dregs and debris of separation. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
A Course in Miracles. Workbook for Students. Lesson 339 I will receive whatever…Foundation of Inner Peace, Second Edition, p. 472.