Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Lesson 56 Review of Lessons 26-30
- (26) My attacks thoughts are attacking my invulnerability.
How can I know who I am when I see myself as under constant attack? Pain, illness, loss, age, and death seem to threaten me. All my hopes and wishes and plans appear to be at the mercy of a world I cannot control. Yet perfect security and complete fulfillment are my inheritance. I have tried to give my inheritance away in exchange for the world I see. But God has kept my inheritance safe for me. My own real thoughts will teach me what it is.
- (27) Above all else, I want to see.
Recognizing that what I see reflects what I think I am, I realize that vision is my greatest need. The world I see attests to the fearful nature of the self-image I have made. If I would remember who I am, it is essential that I let this image of myself go. As it is replaced by truth, vision will surely be given me. And with this vision, I will look upon the world and all myself with charity and love.
- (28) Above all else, I want to see differently.
The world I see holds my fearful self-image in place and guarantees its continuance. While I see the world as I see it now, truth cannot enter my awareness. I would let the door behind this world be opened for me, that I may look past it to the world that reflects the love of God.
- (29) God is in everything I see.
Behind every image I have made, the truth remains unchanged. Behind every veil I have drawn across the face of love, it’s light remains undimmed. Beyond all my insane wishes is my will, united with the will of my Father. God is still everywhere and in everything forever. And we who are part of Him will yet look past all appearances and recognize the truth beyond them all.
- (30) God is in everything I see because God is in my mind.
In my own mind, behind all my insane thoughts of separation and attack, is a knowledge that all is one forever. I have not lost the knowledge of who I am because I have forgotten it. It has been kept for me in the Mind of God, Who has not left His Thoughts. and I, who am among them, am one with them and one with Him.
Notes and Personal Application (2019): I am starting to recognize how attack thoughts attack my invulnerability while loving and Godly thoughts, which serve to remind me of who and what I really am in the family of God give me no more room for attack/defense thoughts and therefore increase my sense of invulnerability. I am thinking of this in terms of our neighbors. One of the dead trees on our property fell in the storm last night. It is blocking the lane, taking out their power. There they are in the early morning hours, sawing the tree in pieces to remove it. Having had ego run-ins with these particular neighbors before, my thoughts could be ones of vulnerability and defensiveness.
All the decades of pummeling which taught James and me a different story of our reality: We are disadvantaged while others are advantaged; we are stupid while others are smart; we have no power while others hold it over us; we have to work twice as hard and long as other people to get what is served up on a silver platter to everybody else – comes back to haunt us at any opportune moment to increase our sense of separation and guilt. However, it goes flying out the window of my mind when I recall who we really are. We are equals in our holiness. We love one another in the Brotherhood of Christ – all of us, no matter the perception that my ego has of our dear neighbors. In the reality of Christ, there is no room for blame, shame, discord, and accusations. Only perfect understanding because we are one.
Thank you, O Most High. My prayer is that James gets this so that we can recognize our Oneness in You and are healed. In Jesus name. Amen.
Notes and Personal Application (2020): This morning, we shared devotions across the miles. After today’s lesson I shared with James the blissful sense of the real world that I experienced this morning. The day was only beginning to dawn. When I opened the back door to head out to the field, the cat sprang out into the sweet-smelling air to walk along with me. I was in my baggy olive housedress and black polka-dotted muck boots tramping across the muddy, stony path, and there it was, the real world where nothing can hurt me. This world is one which we left behind – deciding to go with the self-inflated ego, take what God had created, and make something else out of it.
Yet, there was the real world in the sweet hens who clucked with happiness over their corn and grains and sunflower seeds. There it was in the two fat ducks paddling in the pond. There was the real world of quietness, joy, and loving creation underneath the dark rumble and mumble of reptilian predation that we have made to take the place of love.
Let us not settle into the precarious nature of the shadow world where these glimpses of love and invulnerability are experienced as miracles. The ego would use these moments of healed perception to serve as carrots, dangled in front of our noses to keep us locked into the spinning go-round of sacrifice and death. Yet this is our eternal reality. It is our inheritance as Sons of God. In the real world, there is no fear. When God talks to us, we do not run and hide. We are not ashamed. We have no guilt. There, nothing lurks in the murky waters, preparing to strike!
In the world in which ego has made, our unworthy self-image is kept in its place. Truth dimly enters our awareness through the fog and shadows and is quickly blunted by that which has made the hellish world real. There we fear God and thus serve a false conception. Jesus calls to us to let the door to the real world be opened in our mind. When we see the real world, let us believe in it and devote ourselves to its reality, for only there can we abide in the reflection of God’s Love.