Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Lesson 143 My Mind Holds Only What I Think With God.
(125) In quiet I receive God’s Word today.
(126) All that I give is given to myself.1
Notes and Personal Application: The concept of “My mind holds only what I think with God,” stayed with me throughout the day as I prepared our house for our grandson’s visit. We rarely get to see Coltin who lives in Georgia and so it is with particular excitement that we get to have him all to ourselves for a week or so. Since he is highly allergic to cats, my intention was to leave no trace of fur or dander behind as I de-felined the whole place. Our Velvet was moved to the older, unused section of our house where she curled up on her favorite chair and got extra treats in exchange for her temporary isolation.
As I ran the vacuum cleaner, mopped the floors, made up his bed and emptied drawers, dusted, and shined – I thought so much of our Manda. It was 20 years ago today that our daughter died. It is only the thoughts I think with God that enables me to accept that Manda has and always will be far more than my earthly daughter. She came into the world through me, but never belonged only to me in that “special” way that the world thinks. If my mind held such thoughts, I would not be able to bear her death. I would not be able to “get over” it. I would not be able to forgive those who would expect me to carry on. However, I do think with God and I know that none of this is real; that death and sorrow is an illusion that passes with time, and that Manda and all my other loved ones who have passed from this space in time are as God created them, safe in His arms, and in His loving care.
Just as I welcomed my husband and grandsons home today, enjoyed their warmth, their love, their sweet presence after a few days of solitude and taking care of things at home, so is God waiting in the thoughts we think with Him. Just as I did not go anywhere, but await their return, so is God staying exactly where He has always been – Everywhere, awaiting for us to realize that He is always there in the thoughts we think with Him. In quietness, in reflection, in meditation, and in devotion that is where we hear His Voice and receive His Word.
In this morning’s devotion we also discussed lesson review 126: All that I have is given to myself. We talked about what happens in the world when we give something away. If I give Coltin one hundred bucks, I am a hundred bucks poorer and he is a hundred bucks richer. (His eyes lit up at the very idea!) But if I give Coltin love, we are both richer. If I give Coltin peace, we are both more peaceful. If I give Coltin joy, are we not both full of happiness? And he got this lesson at eight years old. We had a lovely discussion about this concept and gave many examples – the world of an eight-year old boy to a sixty-six-year-old Grandpa is full of examples of this concept.
Conversely, if I try to take another person’s joy, rain on his parade, usurp the love of his friends and family and try to make it my own, I end up with no joy, no parade of my own, alone and friendless, estranged from others and full of despair. We talked about the difference between special relationships in the world that are based up exclusivity, jealousy, demands, and bargains versus the holy relationships of God which are based upon freedom, love, mutuality, and inclusion with no demands because in God we already have Everything – there is no demand for apologies, or sacrifices, or proving someone’s love and devotion because love and devotion are simply a given!
Today we are memorizing our review concepts and saying them together throughout the day, encouraging one another. This week I purchased two lovely perpetual calendars for our study group members who have completed their lessons to compliment their devotional spaces and remind them of our ACIM daily concepts. When I look upon today’s date, an anniversary that in the past stabbed me with a fresh blade of keenest sorrow, is now only a day to remember that my mind holds only what I think with God. It is in quiet that I receive God’s Word today. All that I give is given to myself. Let these words bring comfort and joy to your sorrows, heal your wounds, and quicken your vision in Christ.
God bless and have a wonderful day!
1 A Course in Miracles. Workbook for Students. Lesson 143. Kindle Edition.
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