Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Lesson 154 I am Among the Ministers of God
- Let us today be neither arrogant nor falsely humble. We have gone beyond such foolishness. We cannot judge ourselves, nor need we do so. These are but attempts to hold decision off, and to delay commitment to our function. It is not our part to judge our worth, nor can we know what role is best for us; what we can do within a larger plan we cannot see in its entirety. Our part is cast in Heaven, not in hell. And what we think is weakness can be strength; what we believe to be our strength is often arrogance.
- Whatever your appointed role may be, it was selected by the Voice for God, whose function is to speak for you as well. Seeing your strengths exactly as they are, and equally aware of where they can best be applied, for what, to whom, and where, He chooses and accepts your part for you. He does not work without your own consent. But he is not deceived in what you are and listens only to His Voice in you.
- It is through His ability to hear one Voice which is His Own that you become aware at last that there is one Voice in you. And that one Voice appoints your function, and relays it to you, giving you the strength to understand it, do what it entails, and to succeed in everything you do that is related to it. God has joined His Son in this, and thus His Son becomes His messenger of unity with Him.
- It is this joining, through the Voice for God, of Father and of Son, that sets apart Salvation from the world. It is this Voice which speaks of laws the world does not obey, which promises Salvation from all sin, with guilt abolished in the mind that God created sinless. Now this mind becomes aware again of Who created it, and of His lasting union with itself. So is its Self the one reality in Which its will and that of God are joined.
- A messenger is not the one who writes the message he delivers. Nor does he question the right of him who does, nor ask why he has chosen those who will receive the message that he brings. It is enough that he accept it, give it to the ones for whom it was intended, and fulfill his role in its delivery. If he determines what the messages should be, or what their purpose is, or where they should be carried, he is failing to perform his proper part as bringer of the word.
- There is one major difference in the role of Heaven’s messengers, which sets them off from those the world appoints. The messages that they deliver are intended first for them. And it is only as they can accept them for themselves that they become able to bring them further, and to give them everywhere that they were meant to be. Like earthly messengers, they did not write the messages they bear, but they become their first receivers in the truest sense, receiving to prepare themselves to give.
- An earthly messenger fulfills his role by giving all his messages away. The messengers of God perform their part by their acceptance of His messages as for themselves, and show they understand the messages by giving them away. They choose no rules that are not given them by His authority. And so they gain by every message that they give away.
- Would you receive the messages of God? For thus do you become His messenger. You are appointed now. And yet you wait to give the messages you have received. And so you do not know that they are yours, and do not recognize them. No one can receive and understand he has received until he gives. For in the giving is his own acceptance of what he received.
- You who are now the messenger of God, receive His messages. For that is part of your appointed role. God has not failed to offer what you need, nor has it been left unaccepted. Yet another part of your appointed task is yet to be accomplished. He who has received for you the messages of God would have them be received by you as well. For thus do you identify with Him and claim your own.
- It is this joining that we undertake to recognize today. We will not seek to keep our minds apart from Him Who speaks for us, for it is but our voice we hear as we attend Him. He alone can speak to us and for us, joining in one Voice the getting and the giving of God’s Word: the giving and receiving of His Will.
- We practice giving Him what He would have, that we may recognize His gifts to us. He needs our voice that He may speak through us. He needs our hands to hold His messages and carry them to those whom He appoints. He needs our feet to bring us where He wills, that those who wait in misery may be at last delivered. And He needs our will united with His Own, that we may be the true receivers of the gifts He gives.
- Let us but learn this lesson for today: we will not recognize what we receive until we give it. You have heard this said a hundred ways, a hundred times, and yet belief is lacking still. But this is sure; until belief is given it, you will receive a thousand miracles and then receive a thousand more but will not know that God Himself has left no gift beyond what you already have; nor has denied the tiniest of blessings to His Son. What can this mean to you, until you have identified with Him and with His Own?
- Our lesson for today is stated thus: I am among the ministers of God, and I am grateful that I have the means by which to recognize that I am free.
- The world recedes as we light up our minds, and realize these holy words are true. They are the message sent to us today from our Creator. Now we demonstrate how they have changed our minds about ourselves, and what our function is. For as we prove that we accept no will we do not share, our many gifts from our Creator will spring to our sight and leap into our hands, and we will recognize what we received.
Notes and Personal Application: Our lesson today is of utmost pertinence to our identity. For it is only when we recognize who and what we really are that we can accept that God’s Will has always been and always will be our true will. I have always been scared to pieces of God’s Will! It frightened me to no end to think of what God would do with me if I accepted His Will instead of my will for my life. Learning to fear God rather than accepting His love and devotion to me, my biggest worry was that He would make live amongst foreigners who looked different than me, spoke a different language than I did, ate strange foods, and walked about with their breasts and genitals openly swinging in the breeze. I would have to prove my love for God by being exposed to extreme weather conditions, adhere to strict dress codes, deny myself all of the world’s pleasures, and castigate myself for every unholy thought that crossed my mind. God had been presented to me as an angry, vengeful deity who designed my flesh in order to torment it, make me regret the day I was born, and like a demented, jealous, overbearing lover, demand every thought be centered upon Him, giving me no room for creativity, liberty, and relationship with others. Though my heart yearned to answer the call of God, I had been taught to put my trust in an insane, childish, demanding, green-eyed, monstrous version of God which could have only been devised by ego.
It is high time to move past such erroneous concepts of God who created us in love; holds only goodwill toward His creations and plans only for our happiness. Naturally, our wills are truly aligned with God because all of us seek to love and be loved, enjoy goodwill, and desire to be happy. God’s Will and our will are one. God does not set up roadblocks to our happiness. His love and devotion to us has no limit. If we suffer in our walks with God; if the path to our Father is torturous and fraught with despair and heartache, it is only because we cling to that which is not love – embracing death and darkness over life and light.
There is no arrogance or false humility in accepting our roles as ministers of God. God has called us. It is not our job to judge ourselves and list the reasons why He should choose someone else. Before answering God’s call, I tried to convince Him that I was simply not good enough to be His minister. I had ruined my reputation, I told Him. For years I had mocked and made fun of people who had preached holiness while living lives riddled with meanness. I hated people, I told him. I was full of lust and a desire for vengeance, no good at public speaking, afraid to stand up in front of a crowd. I had sincere doubts about His goodness. Perhaps even the call of God itself was a product of an erratic, overactive imagination. I had little to no training in ministry. And do not forget what the Bible says about women keeping their mouth shut in church and not being preachers, I reminded the good Lord.
This arrogant, falsely humble resistance is the way we hold off deciding for God and delaying our holy function. It is simply not our job to judge ourselves as being fit to be messengers of God. It is not God’s Will that we worry and fret over where He is going to send us or who He will send to us. We are to trust in His goodwill toward us and His devotion to who and what we are. God knows I have no desire to be a superhero, to be on-call 24/7 to go and save people from disasters which they have largely brought upon themselves. There are such people in the world; my mother was one of them. In her zest and zeal for God, she thought it her privilege to deliver people from the very processes that were designed to teach them important life lessons. Not me. Let me sleep the few hours of the day I get to rest my bones; I am not the least bit interested in drama, and if you drag me out of bed in the middle of the night it better be for a damn good reason!
Seeing myself as too selfish to follow in my mother’s footsteps, I have avoided the call of God for my life by failing to understand what I saw as a weakness and flaw in my nature, was a spiritual strength. Many times, trusting in God looks like selfishness and lack of concern because when we truly trust in God we do not meddle in human affairs, get worked up over illness, injustice, or ill-intent. We do not build defenses against supposed attacks or feel compelled to add our two cents to concerns that no longer concern us. When we put down the toys of the ego, step out of special relationships, train our sights on the world beyond we loose the world’s hold upon us and become ministers of God – it is a natural process that involves no sense of sacrifice or battle of wills. It becomes the only thing we want to do as we recognize that sharing God’s gifts to us is the only way we could possibly enjoy them and keep them as our own!
Everyday my postman delivers the mail – it is not his business to rifle through my mail, open my letters, or keep anything for himself. God’s messengers, on the other hand, receive the message first, accept it as their own, and then deliver it to whom the Voice for God directs. As God’s messengers we are not in the business to collect “likes,” to get into theological debates, to defend our philosophies, or to amass converts, keep statistics, or make soulful pleas for donations. It is fulfilling our function that sustains us; it is pleasing God, not impressing humans, that lifts and warms our hearts and draws others, not to us, but to God.
As God’s messenger, I share my function with you, so that you, too, will become God’s messenger. As the world is undone, one by one, hand-in-hand we realize God’s Kingdom. In the meantime, we have dreams of happiness, games of joy, and experience a foretaste of the world beyond. Do not delay, Jesus urges us. Do not argue with the Voice for God Who is calling to you to share the reality of Christ with those with whom He directs. As we share the truth as we are given it, we recognize it for what it is – God’s inestimable gift to us – our salvation and the salvation of the world.
 A Course in Miracles. Workbook for Students. Lesson 154. Foundation for Inner Peace, Second Edition (1992).