1. Forgiveness is the end of specialness. Only illusions can be forgiven, and then they disappear. Forgiveness is release from all illusions, and that is why it is impossible but partly to forgive. No one who clings to one illusion can see himself as sinless, for he holds one error to himself as lovely still. And so he calls it “unforgivable,” and makes it sin. How can he then give his forgiveness wholly, when he would not receive it for himself? For it is sure he would receive it wholly the instant that he gave it so. And thus his secret guilt would disappear, forgiven by himself.
2. Whatever form of specialness you cherish, you have made sin. Inviolate it stands, strongly defended with all your puny might against the Will of God. And thus, it stands against yourself; “your” enemy, not God’s. So does it seem to split you off from God, and make you separate from Him as its defender. You would protect what God created not. And yet, this idol that seems to give you power has taken it away. For you have given your brother’s birthright to it, leaving him alone and unforgiven, and yourself in sin beside him, both in misery, before the idol that can save you not.
3. It is not you who are so vulnerable and open to attack that just a word, a little whisper that you do not like, a circumstance that suits you not, or an event that you did not anticipate upsets your world and hurls it into chaos. Truth is not frail. Illusions leave it perfectly unmoved and undisturbed. But specialness is not the truth in you. It can be thrown off balance by anything. What rests on nothing never can be stable. However large and overblown it seems to be, it still must rock and turn and whirl about with every breeze.
4. Without foundation nothing is secure. Would God have left His Son in such a state, where safety has no meaning? No, His Son is safe, resting on Him. It is your specialness that is attacked by everything that walks and breathes, or creeps or crawls, or even lives at all. Nothing is safe from its attack, and it is safe from nothing. It will forevermore be unforgiving, for that is what it is; a secret vow that what God wants for you will never be, and that you will oppose His Will forever. Nor is it possible the two can ever be the same, while specialness stands like a flaming sword of death between them, and makes them enemies.
5. God asks for your forgiveness. He would have no separation, like an alien will, rise between what He wills for you and what you will. They are the same, for neither One wills specialness. How could They will the death of Love Itself. Yet They are powerless to make attack upon illusions. They are not bodies; as one Mind They wait for all illusions to be brought to Them, and left behind. Salvation challenges not even death. And God Himself, Who knows that death is not your will must say, “Thy will be done” because you think it is.
6. Forgive the great Creator of the universe, the Source of life, of love and holiness, the perfect Father of a perfect Son, for your illusions of your specialness. Here is the hell you chose to be your home. He chose not this for you. Ask not He enter this. The way is barred to love and to salvation. Yet if you would release your brother from the depths of hell, you have forgiven Him Whose Will it is you rest forever in the arms of peace, in perfect safety, an without the heat and malice of one thought of specialness to mar your rest. Forgive the Holy One the specialness He could not give, and that you made instead.
7. The special ones are all asleep, surrounded by a world of loveliness they do not see. Freedom and peace and joy stand there, beside the bier on which they sleep, and call them to come forth and waken from their dream of death. Yet they hear nothing. They are lost in dreams of specialness. They hate the call that would awaken them, and they curse God because He did not make their dream reality. Curse God and die, but not by Him Who made not death, but only in the dream. Open your eyes a little; see the savior God gave to you that you might look on him and give him back his birthright. It is yours.
8. The slaves of specialness will yet be free. Such is the Will of God and of His Son. Would God condemn Himself to hell and to damnation? And do you will that this be done unto your savior? God calls to you from him to join His Will to save you both from hell. Look on the print of nails upon his hands that he holds out for your forgiveness. God asks your mercy on His Son and on Himself. Deny Them not. They ask of you but that your will be done. They seek your love that you may love yourself. Love not your specialness instead of Them. The print of nails is on your hands as well. Forgive your Father it was not His Will that you be crucified.
God cannot make us special and for this we must forgive Him. Our desire for specialness has kept us in a deep sleep, in a realm of uncertainty, chaos, enmity, and death, which can never touch forever. Specialness keeps us bound in a sense of time, the safe place where dreams of power, control, status, and predominance replace the love and brotherhood of God’s Son.
Creation is obscured to those who would be special. There is freedom, peace, and joy always there, always waiting for us to awaken from the dream of death. Read over this text carefully and prayerfully, with a calm and quiet mind, open to the ideas expounded upon here. We must forgive God for our own waywardness, for our own desire to rise above each other, and to rise above Him, for not understanding that Love and Truth cannot be opposed. We must forgive our Father for granting us our wishes and giving us the dream of what we asked for.
Recognize the fact that we are not special and we awaken to the loveliness of Creation as it was created – as one and complete and whole. Reality was not opposed by fiction, dreams of dominance had not replaced the only power that exists. God cannot enter this dream for it was not created in love and by love and for love. It was made with the mad idea of separation and specialness. God does not choose sides in a battle. God does not have a chosen people. God does not demand blood sacrifice nor is His Will manipulated by the praise and worship and flattery of flesh and blood.
In paragraph seven, Jesus tells us that we are lost in dreams of specialness. That we hate the call to awaken; that we curse God for not making our dreams come true. The best He could do was let us wander in our illusions, trusting that we will eventually reclaim our birthright in the “us” that is one.
And so here we find the one thing that bars us from Heaven, the one thing that we must recognize and expunge from our consciousness, the one thing that will keep us circling in the karmic cycles of birth, and suffering, death and dying. We do not get to be special. My light can shine no brighter than your light. There is no sin for the world and all that would fill our minds with dismay is a mirage. God does not play favorites with lies. The only power that exists is that which extends Itself, creates like Itself, does not defeat Itself by creating that which can be opposed by opposites or manipulated by neediness of any kind. When we accept this truth, our eyes begin to flutter open. We become free of doctrines, dogma, and the discrepancy of God that would instill specialness as a substitute for God.
Spend some quiet time contemplating the message in the last paragraph of today’s text for here we see that when we turn upon our brother, we turn upon God. When we would send our brother to hell for his sins, we are sending God to hell, for we are one with God and this could never be the Father’s Will. Let us allow this concept to awaken our minds. We are of God and in God; God Himself has extended Himself through us. It is our desire for specialness that would crucify and condemn any part of the Sonship. Be merciful to God by showing mercy to His Son, Whom He loves and refuses to make special.
 A Course in Miracles. Chapter 24 The goal of specialness. III The forgiveness of specialness. Foundation for Inner Peace, Second Edition (1992).
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