Part 2:2 WHAT IS SALVATION
Lesson 234 Father, Today I Am Your Son Again.
Meditation for Lesson 234
When we were enjoying our nightly soak in the hot tub last night, I mentioned to James how his love had prepared my heart for God’s love. He said thank you, and then asked me what I could possibly mean by saying that. “It’s your love and devotion, the way you put me first and foremost” – I told him. “Things may not have been perfect for us, but your love taught me about God’s love. How to relax into it and not be suspicious and untrusting of it. The more I learned to trust you and your love for me,” I told him, “the more I came to know that you not only deserved my love and trust, but that you were one with me and I was one with you.”
We make mistakes, we forgive. We do not walk out on each other. We do not make up nasty stories about each other in our head and if we do, we refuse to believe them. We made a commitment, and we stay committed – for this is the only way we can build something that has any meaning. And even though James calls me the boss and I have been accused of being somewhat of a tyrant and always getting my own way – we both know that we share an equal give and take.
When I learned to put down my defenses against God, to forgive all the ones who had led me down wrong, fearful paths and found God as my Loving Father – I not only accepted God’s love and devotion but realized how love and devotion are only found in holy relationship. In holy relationship there is mutuality, giving and receiving are one, one moment builds upon each moment before, extending into an expanding space of peace, love, joy and the certainty of forever. There is no turning back, there is no changing one’s mind, there is no building cases and holding grudges, or expecting God to bend to our ego. We become one mind, with one unchanging stance – the goodwill of God’s Will. When we have goodwill in our hearts toward others, we would not dream of hurting them. Dreams of sin and guilt are gone! There is peace. There is a sense of eternity.
Ask God to give you holy relationships in your life. Holy relationships are reflections of God’s Love. Holy relationships are divine. They build and do not tear down. They are based upon mutuality and unity. They lift energy; they never drain. Holy relationships are honest relationships – they are not based on lies, distrust, or usury. When James sees something unholy in me, he tells me about it. There is no defense before the truth, he can count on me to accept what he teaches, because I have learned to depend upon him to be my mirror. He is not out to make me feel bad. He is not out to congratulate my shortcomings or make excuses for my mistakes. He is not out to take something away from me. He is there to increase my purity, my godliness, my vision in Christ – just as I am for him. When we see the ego creeping back into our relationship, making it special, turning it the least bit unholy and untrue, souring our love – it is our responsibility to God and to each other to identify it, to bring it to the altar of truth, to bid it a firm farewell and watch it disappear. We do not have to talk about, think about it, or bring it up again except for illustration.
Today let our holy relationships remind of us God’s Love. It is in these holy unions – the Brotherhood of Christ, the Sonship of God that we bless and are blessed, where all that is uplifting prospers and thrives; all that is against us is bid a firm goodbye and melts away.
Nothing in time disturbs the peace of God the Father and the Son. This is what we must accept as wholly true today. We believe in and recognize our eternal security because God does not abandon His Creation. We accept His grace today. We thank Him for our salvation from the nothingness we have made in the flesh, we so appreciate the love and help He continues to extend to us while we pass through time.
Today we take our quiet moments and meditate upon the holy peace we never left. It is found simply in our ability to shut our eyes to the false and open our eyes to reality – we are one with God the Father and His Son. Today we accept this as wholly true.
 A Course in Miracle. Workbook for Students. Lesson 234. Foundation for Inner Peace, Second Edition (1992).
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Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Lesson 85 Today’s review will cover these ideas:
Notes and Personal Application (2019): Lesson 69 – My Grievances Hide the Light of the World in Me: Let me not use this block, this antagonism that I am projecting on to my sorority to hide the light of the world in me! In ridding myself of the “useless journey” materials this morning, the binder full of little things from the association, I found myself feeling both defensive and antagonistic toward the dear sisters. None of it was anything but ashes in my mind, another useless journey, another silly exclusive group made up of even more exclusive smaller and clubbier groups, another lesson in loneliness. In running from what I am called to do, I sought refuge in an organization that seemed to spell sisterhood. Nobody forced me to join. In fact, I chose to join on my own free will. And yet, this morning I felt a grievance toward the organization for their meaningless rituals, the boring meetings, the self-congratulatory celebrations, private cliques, and over-priced, lackluster dinners.
Let this silly grievance toward this particular organization not hide the light of the world in me, O Lord. The truth is that I woke up in the night feeling grieved toward myself for failed relationships, for how disappointed I end up being whenever I join with others, for projects that I lost interest in, for not writing my book, for not caring enough about our property, for not being as good, smart, accomplished, and generous as other people. I felt so short-changed – not so much in that I was being short-changed, but that I was short-changing everyone and everything in my life by this inability I have to be satisfied with what the world offers. I go looking for something only to end up feeling bitter and disappointed, a sense of meaninglessness, a sense of despair and impending death. I think, Oh I will find what I am looking for in this, or in that. During the last year or so it was in joining clubs. No sooner had I gone through the required rites, memorized the pledges, belted out their tuneless songs, pitched in one fundraiser or charitable project after another, I lost eternal interest, in both sororities and the women who join them. I have never felt more adrift than I feel when I am with them! I did my best to fit in. At first it feels nice, and then it becomes a chore, and then it becomes an impossibility.
I both despise myself for being like this and also like it about myself. I feel like Lucifer in that Netflix show we were watching – at first it is, “Oh look at them, aren’t they so cute with their this and their that and how important they obviously feel,” and then it turns to: “Oh my word, how tedious and dull can we get!” And then I have to drop them, or I am driven by mean and nasty observations of how self-satisfied with games of nothingness they are. Lord, I do not want to be this way. I do not want my ego to tempt me to hold these ridiculous grievances against others. Let me not use this grievance as a block to sight. Let the light of the world shine all this away. I have no need to be like this. I do not know who I am, or what I am doing, where I am, or how to see the world or me in it. I thought I knew a lot about myself, but I know nothing. I want to know! I want to see.
Jesus spoke to my heart, and here, in part, is what He said: You have always had a Holy Spirit that you chose to ignore and run from…God made you and God put His Spirit in you and it is only a matter of time before you understand completely that this is not only your only function but your joy and bliss. You can join all the clubs in the world, and you will find them and the people in them to be as the dead. There is not a club in the world that will ever take the place of the Holy Spirit’s working through you and in you and being your true self. You have no need at all to hold a grudge or harbor ill feelings toward the clubs! Or for yourself for that matter. It is more than alright that you have traveled many different paths trying to find what has been inside of you. This is the way you find who you are not and what you are not. This is a necessary process in time – you are here to find what light is not, what love is not, what salvation is not. This is what Time is for. It will last for you for as long as it takes you to realize the truth of the matter. You were made by Love and for Love. The Holy Spirit is in you and cannot be removed. The Call of God is on your life and you will never find peace or joy, satisfaction, love or belonging in any other avenue. Do not make this hard on yourself. Do not castigate yourself for the avenues you have already explored and explore as many others as you want without reproof or words of spite toward yourself. I give you my permission, Eckie. Seriously, and yet of course not seriously as well, because I know your heart and how spent it is on all the effort you have made to find who you are in the world…The enjoyment of anything other than what you are created for will never last, but continue to seek and enjoy them if you can, Eckie. But know this: Your grievances toward that which disappoints and fails to satisfy dims your light and lengthens your time in the shadows.
Evening fifteen minutes of meditative writing for Lesson 70 My Salvation Comes From Me: Today we will recognize where our salvation is – it is in us and has been in us all along. God created us and put His Holy Spirit in our heart. The Source of our being is in us, and we are saved because of it. We will not look for it outside of our self. It is not found in this organization or that dogma or doctrine. It is not found in a holy book, a holy trek, or even holy behavior. It is inside of us. It is us. From within each one of us it will reach beyond and everything we see will reflect the light that shines in us and in itself. We will not be tempted to look away from our self for our salvation. Jesus is in our heart and always has been and always will be. Jesus has extended Himself to us by giving us the Holy Spirit. This other stuff that tries to take the place of the Holy Spirit in our life has always been and always will be a big nothing. A waste of time and a bringer of unhappiness. It will steal my joy to go down other paths and try to make it shine. Bodies will always disappoint me. Memberships on this level are a sorry substitute for the Sonship of God. Seeking a sense of belonging in the ego realm can only be a sad and useless journey because we belong to the Brotherhood of Christ. Nothing here in this world will ever bring lasting joy or happiness. Efforts in this world and for the ego will bring nothing but heartache, loneliness, and emptiness. Salvation comes from within. Let nothing tempt us to look outside of ourselves for salvation. Do not let the world and all its devices and distractions interfere with our awareness of the Source of our salvation. Nothing has any power to remove salvation from us! Let our hearts be clean of all grievances we have toward all who has failed to give us salvation or teach us who and what we really are, O Most High. Our salvation breaks forth from within us when we forgive all of the substitutes that would stand in Your place, dear Father.
 A Course in Miracles. Workbook 85…Circle of Atonement, Complete and Annotated Edition (1992). p. 1099.
Part 1 Undoing the Way We See Things Now
Lesson 33 There is another way of looking at the world.
Notes and Personal Application (2019) Today was a rather busy day and I did do the five-minute exercise in the morning and then throughout the day, but I did not do the five-minute exercise period in the evening. Still I did apply the idea to many things – and I did have a wonderful day. I saw James differently, and I saw Sam’s Club differently. I saw Gander Mountain differently, money differently and spending money differently. I saw my past differently. I saw our friends Peggy and Roger differently. I saw messing up the time we were going to meet this morning differently (that was a good feeling – letting myself off the hook for thinking 9:30 instead of 9:00). I saw getting weary differently, I saw my housekeeping “lacks” differently to where there was no lack in this regard. I saw my body differently. I saw our food differently.
I ask Jesus to guide and protect me and keep me on the right path. I have followed the guidance of Jesus in studying the Course, and I trust in Jesus to protect my mind.
Notes and Personal Application (2020): This morning we had our devotional with our second cup of coffee, and as we went through the idea for today and then discussed it afterwards, I was reminded that this is a mind training curriculum. We train our mind to see things differently in order to see with the vision of Christ. As long as we are content to see things in a separated state, we are always going to see things as happening to us and around us and avoid looking at our thoughts as a cause. We will believe that the world is the cause, that other people are the cause, that situations outside of our own control are causing us pain and sorrow, joy and fulfillment.
When we begin to see things differently, when we accept our identification as the Sons of God, we realize that our minds are the cause of the world we see. When we change our minds about what we see and begin to see God in everything we immediately recognize ourselves as one with God and with one another. No longer are we victimized by the outside world; no longer do we identify with our vulnerable bodies; no longer can we be so easily manipulated by our human drives – because we see past the illusion and to the certainty of God.
During the month of January I felt as if I had fallen in a pit of lethargy – there were days in which the lessons – the second time around – were dull to me, the text tedious, the diet and exercise plan outlined to me by the Holy Spirit too restrictive. Although I fully believe in Jesus and the divinity of A Course in Miracles, I was plagued by doubts about my own ability to stick with it, to be of any real service, to be anything but the impulsive, fun-loving, changeable old gal that I have always been. There were times I thought that perhaps I was making up the whole thing. Not the curriculum of course, but the guidance of the Holy Spirit. What if I am just hearing voices in my head which I should ignore and try my best to be as normal as possible?
Seeing new followers on my blog, receiving supportive emails, study group members expressing any kind of gratitude or reliance upon my input and teaching, I was filled with panic. What if I am being misled? What if there is nothing to this? Do I really want to put myself out for others like this? What is in it for me? I could be doing a lot of other fun and interesting things… When James expressed how much he missed his lessons on the days in which I could not pull myself out of this slump, I thought well he might as well know the truth about me. I cannot share myself with others, not even him, on this deep and intimate of a level. How can I confess to others that Jesus talks to me, that the Holy Spirit guides me, that from my earliest memory, all I wanted to do was return to God? What if they think that I am bonkers? I was afraid.
Then I read about the split will and realized that the split will has been the bane of my life. Jesus says in Chapter 2 IX v. 10: “…Only your mind can produce fear. It does so whenever it is conflicted in what it wills, thus producing inevitable strain because willing and doing become discordant. This can not be corrected by better doing. But it can be corrected by higher willing!” (Exclamation point is my own.)
Later on in the chapter there is a beautiful prayer, which Jesus instructed Helen to pray when she was facing the same dilemma in her fear of and skepticism toward her own calling. I have paraphrased this prayer and share it with you, hoping it will strengthen your devotion and heighten your God-willing!
Dear Heavenly Father:
I pray that my will be united with Yours, I want to recognize that Your perfect love will correct my imperfect love.
I pray that I will accept the Atonement with conviction, recognizing its immeasurable worth and my own divine worth when I identify with You.
I pray that my fear be replaced by an engaged sense of Your love and that Your ongoing willingness to help me overcomes my divided and inconstant will when it comes to my resistance to fulfilling what You have called me to do.
I accept the course You have chosen for me as from You; the Voice which speaks to me as the Holy Spirit, and I affirm that my will be in perfect accord with Your will in accepting and acting upon and teaching what You have called me to do. Here I am, Lord, I am Yours. In the name of Christ Jesus, I pray. Amen.
There is another way of looking at the world that infuses our lives with meaning and purpose. It delivers us from the lonely, isolation of our individual lives. We are not alone. God speaks to all of us whether we want to acknowledge it or not. God is in our minds, God is in everything we see, God is calling to all of us – let us say together, Here we are, we are Yours.
 A Course in Miracles. Workbook for Students, Lesson 33 There is another…Circle of Atonement, Complete and Annotated Edition (2017), p. 989.
 A Course in Miracles. Chapter 2, Section IX. v. 10. Circle of Atonement, Complete and Annotated Edition, (2017). pp. 89-90
 A Course in Miracles. Chapter 2, Section IX. v. 14. Circle of Atonement, Complete and Annotated Edition, (2017). p. 91.
Father, Your Son is holy. I am he on whom You smile in love and tenderness so dear and deep and still the universe smiles back on You, and shares Your Holiness. How pure, how safe, how holy, then, are we, abiding in Your Smile, with all Your Love bestowed upon us, living one with You, in brotherhood and Fatherhood complete; in sinlessness so perfect that the Lord of Sinlessness conceives us as His Son, a universe of Thought completing Him.
Let us not, then, attack our sinlessness, for it contains the Word of God to us. And in its kind reflection we are saved.
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